I am so with you, but the way I look at it is this, unless you are completely satisfied with the way you look then you need to push forward...things happen in life and you get off track, it happens and maybe for good reason, but we need to move on and make it work! If I can do this so can you! Life gets hard and things happen, but we make it what it is! If this is truly what you are wanting then you need to jump back on the wagon and get going! You are doing so great and I know you can continue to do it!