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GO GREY TEAM!!!
ok so i finally have caught up with the biggest loser season 9 and i am very very motivated right now i LOVE sam and koli they are such sweet and genuine guys that i'm really pleased they are doing well.
my own weight loss has been a bit slow mainly because i had guests and it just threw my whole weight loss off, my friend who visted me is TINY like a UK size 8-10 and she is constantly going on about wanting to be thinner her aspirations are to have a collar bone that completely sticks out and to be honest it drives me round the bend being on here and seeing what people can do and how greatful they are for getting healthy it makes me want to shake her and get her to see how damn lucky she is she doesnt have to work to be that small its natural! i wish i could let her walk a day in my shoes and really feel what fat is i think she may be less quick to moan about being fat then!
I also worry about her slightly i have noticed that she pretty much lives off mushrooms lettuce and berries she says she eats white meat but i have never seen it she detests any kind of carbs which seems crazy to me i mean there is no need to gorge yourself on them but cutting them out completely cannot be good for her. I feel like she believes because she is eating "healthy" stuff like salad and berries that she can lose weight and stay healthy but i dont believe she can i worry about whats happening inside :/ maybe im just being the jealous fat friend i dont know but i do worry about her!
things in my life right now are complicated like crazy - i had a kinda bad year at uni i got behind in a lot of my deadlines and skipped a lot of classes but now i have a goal and it is scary to imagine not being able to reach it! If i can pass all of my classes for this year i can go on an exchange to the country i have been longing to go back to Norway for one whole year (and hopefully if all goes to plan forever) My head is really trying to stay focused on that at the moment but dang it is hard!
The place i will be moving too if i do pass has a gym right round the corner from the apartments which makes me super happy annd Bergen the city i will be moving to is essentially built in the middle of a ton of mountains so i NEEED to be fit before i get there i do not want to be the girl who cannot walk up the mountain to school i dont want to have to rely on the busses all the time!
Another reason for me being so desperate to get to Norway some of you may already know if you knew me from my old profile is because of a boy we dated when i lived there 3 years ago but broke up because the distance is tooo far since then despite a few attempts to move on nothing has worked and we have stayed in touch well that is actually putting it lightly we talk every day and have done for the whole time we have known each other. I am hoping and preying that if i get this opportunity to move back to Norway it will finally give us the chance that we deserve. He will still be a good 14 hours away so im not being too cocky about it but i havent given up in 2 whole years i don't intend to give up now!
as of monday I am 100% back on this weightloss i have a plan to complete at least 1 peice of work a day! starting with the late ones and working forward! WISH ME LUCK!
also a few things that popped into my mind while watching TBL
1. Daris' beard reminds me of a certain FS'er
2. Alison's boobs are pretty much always on show
3. I can't believe it took 11 shows before it started to get really bi**chy
4. I love how every contestants excuse when they are doing something shady is "I just had to think of myself for the first time in my life" or something to that effect!
:)
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