dawdevil's Journal, 19 Mar 10

I wish I wasn't a slave to the scale, but I am. Maybe I'll have DH hid it from me for a week. That would be nice. Daw, just put your mind to doing it and you will. You are one tough cookie, or no, one tough piece of bacon! That's you. You can do it. and I am here for you. 

thanks...cookie was funnies haha lol you wanna know something???...got on scale today..and it weighed me in at 169...so i dont get how it can be 172 one day, 174, next, and then 169 the next...do you think it may be bc i drank like 10 small bottles of water yesterday and ate dieretics...its gotta be water weight thats all i can figure..but im happy...and today am feeling good finally got some sleep and i think that the sun has brought me back to feeling alive some..being bipolar/manic depressive too at times...its really tuff to think positve all the time..thats why im so gald i have you around..you are so positive all the time..i usta be when i was thin..but when i got in that accident and beat up by ex and sorta disfigured and then meds...which caused the weight gain.,.i packed it on..and its just been so hard to get myself back in the groove while licking so many wounds...i really hope i can get back the old dar which is alot like YOU whom always keeps your head up and keeps busy ..i think YOU are a very admirable and lovable person and im so gald we're friends..thanks for all your energy you send my way and kindness love dar 

I struggle w/depression,too dar...I wish I could alwsys be upbeat and positive but I've been better since I've been on this site. It helps so much to have supportive people posting messages to you. I was in an abusive relationship in my past,too so I know how awful that can get. Hang in there - things will get better.  

hope ur weekend is a beautiful and relaxing one sweety!! ^_^ hugs and again thanks...chin up!!! ^_^ we can do this!!!