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Confessions of a frumpy housewife…..
I knew that I had let myself go but I did not realize to what extent until yesterday. It was then that my refusal to buy size appropriate clothes, or new clothes at all for that matter, caused me a great deal of embarrassment. For the most part I have been living in old sweat pants. When I say old I mean old. The ones I chose for yesterday were brand new 13 years ago when I was a newly wed. I did not think much of my choice when I put them on, noting only that they were grey, baggy, and reliable. I paired it with an old baggy sweatshirt that was stained with memories. A splotch of paint here, from when we painted the walls of our first house 5 years ago, a dark grease stain, born from trying to eat pizza only to find that the cheese was scalding hot, a small burn hole, from back when smoking was among my bad habits. When it was time to find comfort I reach for these clothes.
I am not a high maintenance woman. I like to keep things simple and I have no problem leaving the house without my make up on, or sporting my favorite worn sweat clothes. I did dress nice yesterday for the first part of the day (I had clients coming) but as soon as I was able I change I reached for comfort. It was then that disaster struck.
I decided to attend my daughter’s dance class. It would be nice to catch up with the other moms and to socialize a bit. I walked into the studio beaming and feeling happy to be out. I work from home so leaving the house for even a little while is like a mini vacation. It had been an hour and my daughter was almost done with her first class. I was walking around, chatting here, stopping to watch there, mingling. Some moms behind me were whispering and gesturing for me to come over. I hear “I don’t want to tell her you tell her”. At first I think my daughter is up to dance and they are calling me to watch her. No such luck.
They were trying to tell me that my sweat pants had split at the seams and I was walking around with a large hole in my butt, exposing my underwear. I had been walking around that way for most of the day and not a single person had mentioned it. Two people later said “I thought you knew it was there”.
It was then that it occurred to me that I had indeed let myself go. It had reached the point that my peers deemed sweat pants with a gaping hole in the rear as “normal” for me. In fact, when I later got home and looked at my reflection in the mirror I noted not only the hole but that my entire rear end was riddled with stains. The stains were so pronounced that is almost appeared as if I had gone to the bathroom in my pants, let it dry, and later rolled in dirt. Ugggggggggg
Today I am going to throw out those sweat pants. Today I am also going shopping!!!
Todays Goals:
1. 30 minutes of exercise GOAL ACHIEVED
4. Eat only healthy foods GOAL ACHIEVED
5. Create a newborn album FAILED
6. drink 5 glasses of water GOAL ACHIEVED
7. Do not drink more that 14 ounces of wine GOAL ACHIEVED
8. record all food in my food journal GOAL ACHIEVED
9. Take a daily vitamin GOAL ACHOMPLISEHD
10. Get a gym membership GOAL ACHIEVED
View Diet Calendar, 23 January 2010:
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1121 kcal
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Fat: 39.78g | Prot: 75.18g | Carbs: 32.76g.
Breakfast: Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Lean Ground Beef 93/7, Asparagus, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Original Powder Creamer. Lunch: chicken breast. Dinner: Original Powder Creamer, Asparagus, Lean Ground Beef 93/7, Extra Virgin Olive Oil. Snacks/Other: Cabernet Sauvignon Wine. more...
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2131 kcal
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Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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