Hey Jiggles, it's tough being good to ourselves, but give yourself some credit; you've decided that it's time to change things in your life. It's a slow process, and especially finding the motivation to stick to it. If you find that you don't yet have the discipline to do this on your own, then set up a system of accountability with a friend or with someone here on fatsecret; monitor each other and provide each other constructive criticism. If you know that it's not only yourself but your buddy that you'll be disappointing if you don't at least put in the effort -- regardless of the results -- then you might get the incentive needed to get started. In the end, though, you need to do this for yourself; This is your body, you need to treat it well; it's the only body you'll ever have and only you have the tools needed to get it back into shape so that it can be strong and beautiful for many years to come.