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Good Morning, FS Warriors! Journal Entry #900. Wow, who'd have thunk it! Well, I am not sure I am off to a great start this morning. I don't know what got into me, but after a couple cups of coffee, and getting my morning chores done, I decided to make a four egg omelette. Nothing in it but whipped up eggs, so I'm not even sure whether that qualifies as an omelette or not. In any case, that put my breakfast at around 450 calories or so, including the V8 juice. I don't normally eat 4 eggs at a time, and not usually a 450 calorie breakfast either, for that matter. In any case, we will just have to see where the day leads.
I had hopes of doing something fairly special on this holiday, but it is 11:30 in the morning and DW is still in bed. How does that Army commercial go? Something like, "I do more before 5 o'clock than most people do all day." So, I guess the best I can hope for today is going out to eat; or should I say that is the worst I can hope for? I worry about her sleeping so much, but I think it's mostly because she is up and down most nights, until she gets exhausted and then does sleep for 15 or more hours. It could be due to all the meds she takes for replaced knees, fibroid myalgia, kidney stones, and depression. I couldn't handle all the meds she takes, but she's been doing it for years. I guess she has learned to live with it. She did the sleep study thing and they gave her one of those contraptions years ago. She used it for a month or so, and quit. I'm kind of glad she did; I don't think it did anything for her. Besides that, it was kind of scary waking up to that.
Call me Odd, but it seems almost sacrilegious to get involved in a big project that requires toil and sweat on a holiday. I guess, in reality, that's just an excuse for being lazy, but I think I make up for it on occasion. Holidays do make it more difficult to keep out of the food pantry, but the 4 egg omelette does seem to be helping in that area right now. I could declare this the day that I get back on my exercise plan. Interesting thought, but I think not. I think, at least until DW gets up, I will relegate the afternoon to the AMC channel on TV and practicing my guitar. Play it again, Sam. Toodles!
Well, Dw got up at about 5:30, demonstrated an atititude and went back to bed. OK, apparently the depression monster has reared its ugly head. I'm not concerned; I have been a good boy, and did not cause it. Honest. So, now I wish I had gone ahead and worked on the old truck or something. Got out a couple of beer brats and some Chardonay. Maybe not the best choices, but even if I was a great cook, which I am not, I don't feel like putting in the effort. Nothing I could find was really worth all the calories that any of my choices were going to dump in this girlish figure. So, I am enjoying a romantic evening, all alone with wine and brats, and watching Fast & Loud on TV. The company sucks, but at least the bus they are working on is the same year vehicle I have in the garage. Their's is a '59 Chevy School Bus, and mine is a '59 Chevy.1 ton Panel Truck sitting out in the garage. Note to self: if DW is not up by 9:00 on a weekend, go do something. Haha, I am a slow learner. OK, so far I have not sabotaged my diet completely. Toodles, again.
View Diet Calendar, 07 September 2015:
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1779 kcal
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Fat: 95.29g | Prot: 99.12g | Carbs: 72.09g.
Breakfast: Great Value Non-Dairy Coffee Creamer, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), V8 Spicy Hot 100% Vegetable Juice, Egg Omelet or Scrambled Egg. Lunch: Baked or Fried Coated Chicken Breast with Skin, Baked or Fried Coated Chicken Wing with Skin (Skin/Coating Eaten), Captain D's Diet Coke (22 oz). Dinner: Chardonnay Wine, Great Value Enriched White Sandwich Bread, Gilbert's Beer Bratwurst. more...
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Sorry the DW does not feel well....as far as sacrilegious goes I kind of think that 7 days a week.....don't want to hear "No Pain, No Gain"....what moron comes up with these things???
07 Sep 15 by member: Kathryn1922
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Haha, Kathryn; I like your sense of humor. Oh wait, maybe you weren't kidding. LOL!
07 Sep 15 by member: DairyKing
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Was kidding....(I think)....sense of humor gets me thru the day.....can usually find something to smile about.....probably a sign of some mental problem I have never heard of and don't want to know about:) Hope I can make someone else smile!!!
07 Sep 15 by member: Kathryn1922
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SS about DW sleeping so much and keeping strange hours. Not good according to articles I have read. You are probably right about her meds. She may need some adjusting by the doc. You sound like you stay busy regardless! You ROCK!!
08 Sep 15 by member: kattay
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Thanks, Kattay! It gets scarey when the Doc adjusts her meds. One time I told him that she was going in and out of senility, and I thought she was taking too many meds and they weren't playing nicely with each other. He said, "I think you are right," and he took her off of 7 of the meds cold turkey. She darn near went into a coma, and I had to have her taken to the ER where she was admitted and treated until they got her under some kind of control again. It makes me nervous when they adjust stuff, and I have to be careful what I say to the Doc. I don't want him making a decision because I give him my opinion. She loves her Doc.
08 Sep 15 by member: DairyKing
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Also sorry DW (dear wife?) is depressed. Meds scare me too. Long term especially. Seen lots of folks in AA with tardive dyskinesia. Uncontrollable movements due to long term psychotropics. Always very distressing to see.
Our mantra in AA is "move a muscle, change a thought"..used to annoy the crap out of me when I first came in and people would say that..now its my best tool...and know its sounds preachy and platitudinous (now that is a linguistically dense word DK)and Dianne is trying hard not to step in that pile again. Sorry you are struggling and she is struggling. One of the reasons I took Mama off Lipitor was side effect of cognitive decline. I always check side effects on meds to determine if on a cost/benefit basis its justifiable. She had been getting a little fuzzy lately. Very unlike her. Has seemed better lately.
Best to you DK..know you are a caring concerned hubby and stuff like this is very tough. :( Humor helps. Sometimes in AA when I first came in and could not stand one more worthy phrase, someone would tell me a really good dirty joke...humor always helps.
Sounds like Chardonnay might be medically indicated. If I could still drink safely, I would be.
09 Sep 15 by member: DianneGardner
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Haha, Dianne - Darling Wife, but you get the idea. DD Darling Daughter, etc. FS does have its cryptics.
10 Sep 15 by member: DairyKing
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Wow..33 years..you are doing something right..obviously both of you...my best friend and BFF has had depression since childhood..think she finally has the black dog as she calls it firmly leashed ...but she had many days stretching over years on the couch weeping....many very famous and wonderful people have suffered with depression..two that spring to mind..Winston Churchill and Abraham Lincoln..so DW in good company...fortunately for most people it cycles but know it's hard on those closest to the sufferer...hope it's better soon.
10 Sep 15 by member: DianneGardner
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"Move a muscle, change a thought" is one platitude that I haven't heard and to be honest I've heard lots of them over the years but I like that one ~ unfortunately though when a depression sufferer is in that black hole; platitudes are the very, very last thing that will even get close to touching 1st base with them. DK having been diagnosed with Bi-Polar over eight years ago, spending over three months in Mental Health Care facilities, having numerous suicide attempts thwarted, sixteen electro convulsive shock therapy treatments followed by three years of lying in bed in a dark room almost 24/7, only getting out to go the the fridge, the loo or sneak to the supermarket very late at night to get supplies when no one would recognise me, rarely showering, changing my clothes or sheets or cleaning my teeth whilst waiting for the right combination of medications to work on me and ease my pain to make life bearable again; I ultimately dug my way out of that horrendous deep dark black hole & pushed the sulky big black dog down in it by starting to watch wonderful inspirational true life stories ..... not necessarily about Mental Health issues but about people who have overcome obstacles that I could never see myself surviving ~ I mean ~ would you/could you cut off your own arm if you fell down a ravine whilst rock climbing and got your arm immovably trapped between two huge rocks and you were going to die if you just sat there being a cry baby waiting for someone to come and save you ...... I wish I had a list of all of the wonderful movies I've seen; books I've read about real people's achievements for your DW but believe me if you go to your local DVD store and look on the spine or. cover they'll be clearly marked TRUE STORY and the beauty of this kind of therapy is that it is pure escapism ~ it takes your mind off your own feelings of hopelessness for 90 mins or so and leaves you feeling invigorated and humbled by the heroic person's story you have just witnessed. I also borrowed the same kind of books from my library and started packing a little picnic & going to a park bench or the beach with my own chair and reading ...... DW MUST get out in the sun and fresh air to feel better again ~ it can be a slow process and like weight loss, there's those days where you fall off the wagon and feel like kaka again but you just have to look back in diary entries of your good days and see what it was you did to feel that good and no matter how hard you feel it's going to be ~ Get up, Eat up, Clean up & Show up ..... Please pass these words of encouragement to your DW and I pray for both of your sakes that they are helpful. Bless you both Jilly 🌹
11 Sep 15 by member: Jillybeans 7
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Jilly, I agree with you, and have spent 33 years trying to get DW to look on the bright side of things. She doesn't appreciate my humor quite as much as you do. :D She is much better than she used to be, believe me. She used to shut herself up in a dark room and rock, to escape the world, quite often. She hasn't done anything like that for over 15 years. Good for you! I have always said that surrounding yourself with positive people, reading motivational stories and watching comedy and uplifting movies can't help but give you a fresher more positive outlook on life. "Laughter doeth good like a medicine."
11 Sep 15 by member: DairyKing
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Well more kudos to you DK for being the devoted, committed husband that you obviously are because I am fully aware how extremely hard it is for spouses, family members, friends etc to 1. Understand or relate to what their loved one is living through 24/7. 2. Be patient, loving & kind to them consistently 3. Not take the peculiar, seemingly insensitive selfish behaviour of the sufferer towards you too personally & let it eat you away & 4. Remain in the relationship; trying every day in every way to prove that you do care merely by the consistency of your presence ...... You sir are a true gentleman and by the quality of your writing; I suspect, a scholar ..... Good on ya mate all the way from Aussie land. Thumbs up 👍🏽 Champion 🏆
11 Sep 15 by member: Jillybeans 7
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Ssshhh! DW already thinks I have a big head. Thanks!
11 Sep 15 by member: DairyKing
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