AlreadyCuteK8's Journal, 29 Jul 11

from what I see, you're doing great, so don't give up now! I know it's hard, but try to hold on a little longer. It'll get easier in a couple of weeks. Then you'll be used to the exercicing and all the food, and it'll be something fun to do! If you still have some food cravings, i'd say: make sure you don't have to much candy in your house to give in to. but if you give in to your craving, eat some fruit or some vegetables. the're healthy, low-calories and delicious! come on! i know you can do this, don't give up now! 

Katie, I ask myself the question, "Why did I let it get this bad" often. I know now that what happened to me was life happened and I didn't cope with it well at all. I didn't have the tools necessary to respond healthily or appropriately to the stresses and events that happened in my life. I didn't think I was worth it. My self-loathing convinced me that I didn't deserve to be happy. Instead of participating in my own life, I "allowed" myself to passively let life happen to me. I retreated into a self-imposed prison. The longer I remained in that dark place, the more distorted my thinking became and the harder it was to stop the revolving cycle of misery. I took comfort in food. It made me feel better for a momoent, but my ever climbing weight depressed me further so I made myself feel better by consuming more comfort food. I could go on and on but it'a pointless. The point is it doesn't matter what road I took to get here. I AM HERE! It is my choice what road I take NOW. The past cannot be changed but I can influence my future. I can choose this day to start right here where I am and make positive decisions to achieve my goals. I don't have to be hindered by the past. I choose to joyously begin my future! I'm sorry, I don't want you to think I'm preaching at you, but I guess I am. Sometimes I get a little carried away. Without knowing what diet or way of eating plan you are following, it'a difficult to give you any advice. Many people will disagree with me, but I believe if you allow yourself some treats and plan for it in your daily calories or macro nutrients you won't feel deprived and perhaps you won't have such cravings. But as I said, perhaps your particular eating plan restricts certain foods. Ask yourself, "Is this something I am willing to live without the rest of my life?" I understand what a struggle it is to live with RA and that you have to make adjustments in your exercising to accommodate your condition. Please don't give up! I see you've lost another pound and that's progress. Your weight chart looks very impressive! Keep up the good work, one day at a time. I'm sending you lots of hugs! Take care and God bless you!