Starting weight: 121.8 kg Last Week: 118.3 kg Today's weight: 116.2
Things I've done well --drank lots of water --logged every single day wooo! --was more active and proactive in stretching --made connections to build up my own special little FS jedi counsel
Last week's goals: --23,606 / 35,000 steps --57 / 105 active minutes --7 / 7 days logged
Goals for this week --5,000 steps a day --15 active minutes a day --5-10 minutes of legs up the wall pose each night
Had a very rough start to my day today, after a difficult night. My youngest is now climbing out of his crib, and it struck us by surprise. We weren't ready to deal with the nighttime shuffle of back in bed back in bed just quite yet. And then this morning, well just stupid things with apartment management. Felt very ganged up on, tried to share my feelings with husband's mother, she cut me short trying to do the whole "oh well just don't feel that way!", I got upset and she withdrew. She sat and listened to me but I could tell it wasn't any good. I let my emotions get the better of me and showed I was upset, and she does not do emotions very well. They seem to make her uncomfortable, so she politely pulls in and listens, but the opportunity for connection was lost.
But wow rambling, all that to say. Rough start to the day but feeling okay now. Doing my best to keep moving forward. Pulling my heart along today feels a bit like trying to reel in a fish. It's working...but there's definitely resistance. I think I'm out of the danger zone, though.
All in all I think this week was better. I'm more mindful of my eating, even more so since reading another FS journal entry about enjoying the one bite of a favorite treat. It helped remind me that I am able to do that, and I can be aware of how nice that treat is, yeah man it's so yummy!, thanks for the bite, I am satisfied.
I'm also very excited to be doing the Break the Habit challenge starting next week. I think it's just what I need to get both my step and activity goals checked off my list! I have a plan that might annoy the hell out of my husband (and myself!) the first couple of days, but I hope it just becomes second nature eventually to move for a portion of every waking hour.
Well, really I don't know what else to report for the week. Actually feeling hopeful for the weeks ahead. Actually feeling like maybe this time, I'm going to work through the things I need to work through. That little hurt girl inside me isn't going to grow if I keep shutting her up with food. I have to let her know it's okay, and she is loved, and maybe someday I can even tell her that myself.
Have a great weekend FS Friends! TGIF
View Diet Calendar, 20 February 2015:
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1428 kcal
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Fat: 84.23g | Prot: 36.59g | Carbs: 132.44g.
Lunch: Land O'Lakes Unsalted Sweet Butter, Gruyere Cheese, French or Vienna Bread (Includes Sourdough). Dinner: Bratwurst, Brown Gravy, Mashed Potato, Cooked Green String Beans (from Frozen). Snacks/Other: Sugar Wafers (with Creme Filling), Rivella rivella bleu, Chio Salted Nature Chips. more...
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2829 kcal
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Exercise:
Resting - 15 hours and 50 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours and 10 minutes. more...
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