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Getting a little scared that this back-tracking in my weight loss progress might be the start of a snowball into doom. Gosh, I worked so hard this last few weeks to get those 5 lbs to budge; and to waste all the progress with just an hour of binging on chinese food...ugh! I'm so ashamed and disappointed in myself. I put all that effort with the best intentions; and was so easily taken away from focusing on my goal. I have to buy that bridesmaid dress in about 3 weeks. I don't think I'll be in that much of a smaller size from when I started. This awful cold took me to such a vulnerable position. With feeling crappy and sick all those days, it seemed the only thing to comfort me was food. And it did. But just temporarily. Must remember that. Food (the ones I need to stay away from) is just a short-term emotional fix (i.e. temporary euphoria), with long-term physical consequences (i.e., weight gain, bloating). Being away from journal writing probably didn't help either. With the journal writing, I was able to stay very accountable and on top of my food and exercise. Being away from it was sort of my way of avoiding having to face it. Which isn't healthy. I'm the only one responsible for myself; and I need to face these challenges head-on.
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