I am so sorry to hear about your mom. I lost my mom, too about 6 months ago.I still cry every day and wish she was still here. My sis lives in RI, about 6 hrs from me, so we tear up the phone lines constantly. I know EXACTLY how you feel about the family wheel-I feel the same! You are taking the right steps, going to the gym-your mom would want that(especially since you've lost a ton of weight already!) Hope your sis and new baby are feeling better! Hang in there, your feelings are normal and know that you are not alone!