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Two weeks until we leave for Vegas. :):) I am really looking forward to it. I have not been an active participating member here for sometime and I feel like I am finally ready for an update.
I will be honest. I think that by including a picture of myself in my bio I set myself up to fail. I have no problem sharing when things are good, when I can be positive and upbeat. The problem is that my journey is not one that is always sunshine and rainbows. I do not always feel like looking toward the bright side, in fact sometimes I just wish the world would go away. I sometimes feel like yelling and screaming. I want to cuss and say hurtful things. I do not always feel like being polite, or even worse, politically correct. Sometimes I feel empty, sometimes I feel rage. I needed this place to be a place where I could be myself, without a filter, expressing all of who I am and not the parts I know people will relate to. It could not be that place because I am not the only one here and ultimately my words, my actions, effect other people.
Two weeks until Vegas and I am again ready to play nice. I made it down to 171 only to find myself swallowed by old habits. In my absence I managed to get myself all the way up to 186.5. I have been back on track now for about 3 weeks and have lost 9 pounds. I gave up wine, which was not in the original plan. I feel good. I feel motivated. I am READY FOR VEGAS!!
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